And finally, after a long while I have an evening off, a couple of hours just for myself. And since autumn is on its way, it showed its first traces on Sunday with a huge storm, I decided that it's time for autumn feeling and movies. Because the storm was beautifully melancholic. I really love storms and haven't seen one such as that one for a looong while now.
Anyways, I decided to spend my free time in the bath and in front of computer. And I am just watching Inkheart. I read books 2 years ago and must say I was more or less positively surprised with the choice of actors. Most of all, I was more than happy to see that my favourite character in the book was not spoiled by the wrong actor.
Just wanted to make a very quick post really. And now I'm back to the movie!
"Don't try," is written on his grave. The man of his time, this time and times to come. Pure, raw, straight to the core, sometimes deep and poetic.
When I first met this man, I didn't expect to find what I did in his Women. At first we actually hated each other. He was just another man, writing about women, having sex with them and writing about that, drinking and fighting and writing about that...I thought he was just one more out of many, a macho-guy, who didn't care about women, about achieving something, about nothing actually, except sleeping and getting wasted. And then, a year of two later I heard someone talking about him and something whispered in my ear: "Hey, I think you should give that Chinasky guy another chance."
And I did. And saw that I got it all wrong the first time. He has been one of my top reads ever since. And he stays on top. And I'm only writing this because today is a special day for me and I think that Hank should be part of it, although I don't think he really gave a shit about his birthday.
"Frankly, I was horrified by life, at what a man had to do simply in
order to eat, sleep, and keep himself clothed. So I stayed in bed and
drank. When you drank the world was still out there, but for the moment
it didn’t have you by the throat."
"It was true that I didn't have much ambition, but there ought to be a
place for people without ambition, I mean a better place than the one
usually reserved. How in the hell could a man enjoy being awakened at
6:30 a.m. by an alarm clock, leap out of bed, dress, force-feed, shit,
piss, brush teeth and hair, and fight traffic to get to a place where
essentially you made lots of money for somebody else and were asked to
be grateful for the opportunity to do so? "
Last two weeks were absolutely crazy. I found a job, two of them actually and I've been balancing between the two almost every day, coming home dog tired, going to bed right away and really cutting out my social life for the most part. But! There was some civilization involved and so I got to meet some nice, sweet, unusual, happy but serious people. I also went jumping from a boat in the marina in the moonlight, which was like jumping into black abyss with silver linings and dots. It was beautiful. I also re-discovered the beauty of an impulsive act, imagination and the living-in-the-moment-make-it-last philosophy. At the same time however, my inner self apparently needed to remind my conscious self that I can still manage to be cranky, annoyed and short of words if so happens. So now I'm also working on pulling myself out of this negativity, because I don't like it how it projects on my other half. Hopefully yesterday night was a breakpoint for this area.
So today I worked a little, now I'm home and about to cook. Fish chinese-style sounds good. I hope it'll be as tasty as planned. And in the evening some red wine, hopefully more moonlight, relaxed night and a take-it-easy concert:
August dearest, make it good, make it better. You smell beautifully and I love you a lot. With the rain last week the worst heat is gone and I can feel the arrival of autumn in the air. It's coming slowly, getting closer everyday. It feels something like it already, but I just inhale it all in and smile every time I walk out the door. Pine trees are more intoxicating than ever.
